The Hidden Variable of Societal Transformation
When co-founding collaboratio helvetica in early 2017, I knew I was signing up for a roller coaster. Our vision was magnificent, I set out to do something I had never done, in ways very few people anywhere had ever done.I knew it would be challenging, like any new adventure or meaningful change work may be. I had no idea however just how intense this roller coaster would be. I did not know it would shake up all parts of me and put them together again in a new way. How much inner work it would ask me to do in order to make real progress towards our goals.
Often we tend to focus on the results, the output, the achievements and the awards - and just forget about the difficult bits, the rough patches, and what it took to get there.
Even when looking at start-up incubators or mainstream leadership training, the focus is on your skills, your presentation, your public speaking and displays of power or compassion. Whilst these may all be valuable things to develop, if studied and deployed without the internal work, they’re missing the mark.
Theory U and other amazing tools for transformation and introspection have taught me one thing: your interior condition matters. Where you come from matters. Your mindset matters.
“The quality of an intervention depends on the interior condition of the intervenor”
- Bill O’brien
In theory it made complete sense to me that we cannot solve our problems with the same mindsets that created them, to paraphrase a quote attributed to Albert Einstein. It seems logical to me that in order to truly re-invent education I need to let go of certain assumptions and conditionings, such as the concept of school as a building, or of a class as a group of students grouped by age. Similarly, I understand that in order to challenge the patriarchy I need to let go of what I was taught I should be as a woman*. I for example needed to do some conscious work to let go of internalised beliefs around how I should keep quiet, small and pretty, to really own my voice and do the work that I do today and that I love.
That all made sense. But I had completely underestimated to what extent this work would ask me to face my own shadows. Just how crucial this inner condition, where I am coming from, is. I had to admit to myself that despite all my nice philosophies and optimism about the world, I was still often trying to create change coming from a place of guilt, anger and shame. I had to witness how this limited my potential to contribute to change, how it sometimes even did damage, and how I was in fact my own biggest obstacle. I approached and perhaps overstepped the boundaries of what was healthy numerous times. The third time of feeling absolutely depleted, I could no longer deny that the cup I was trying to pour from is not bottomless, and needed some serious replenishing.
My own trauma, patterns and unhealthy drivers were not only affecting me negatively - they also impacted my team and people around me. It is a bit hard to face this reality and can be embarrassing, but again, we talk too much about the shiny bits, and not enough about the shadowy ones. The inner work is the hidden variable of societal transformation. And as often, going through this process has brought many crucial lessons - some of which are captured in the model Impact Loop of inner & outer change.
Nora Wilhelm is the Co-Founder and Catalyst of collaboratio helvetica. She has a background in youth engagement and active citizenship (European Youth Parliament) and specialised in collaboration, self-organisation, ecosystem leadership, systemic change and social innovation. Beyond facilitating multi-stakeholder processes and social innovation labs as well as promoting the Sustainable Development Goals (SDGs), she is a renowned young leader, advocate and speaker, recognised for her work by the Swiss government, UNESCO, Forbes 30 under 30 and other institutions.